The light is coming
At last, the days are getting longer, phew! winter can feel like endless night.
The mornings are brighter, the evening day light longer, the variety of birds sharing morning song, stronger.
Spring is around the corner, it’s palpable, the frigid cold is disappearing, soon we (in the Northern Hemisphere) will have sunnier days and warmer weather - ah sweet spring is beginning to show her face.
I am certainly experiencing the shift. My body is feeling more energetic, with a little more motivation to do things as the light lasts longer. My thoughtful and grateful goodbyes have been said to the darkness and sleepiness of winter.
Every season has its purpose, and I took the time this winter season to shed the things that no longer serve me, whether it was by purging my closets, cabinets and pantry - to intentionally shedding the mindsets that held me back, and kept me small. This one (playing small) has been particularly difficult for me through the years, for a number of reasons: culture, religion and society being big ones - and though I have worked through those boxes for many years - as a woman with ADHD, rejection sensitivity is a real thing - but I am proud of the woman I am, with all the trip-ups and bruises, mistakes and lessons along the way - I can truly say - I am perfectly imperfect and growing every day.
Perfection is no longer the goal, progress is - Progress is the goal.
We neurospicy folks can be particularly susceptible to perfection pressure, to the point of paralysis- but no more!
You are amazing. You are intelligent. You are worthy. Breathe and take one step forward. (I love you, you got this).
Spring is coming, so now let our guiding questions be:
Am I better at being fully me today than I was yesterday?
Am I embodying the love and light placed within me?
Am I sharing my gifts? (Or am I keeping them hidden because I feel like they’re not perfect enough yet to share with others?)
No more hiding. Like Spring, it’s time to show your face.
I’m writing this to you, but also to me.
I have struggled for years with the desire to be known and loved for who I am - and at the same time actively hiding because being known is scary for me - as a kid/teen I had to behave a certain way because of gender, culture, religion, who my parents were, and unbeknownst to me - ADHD. I did not feel the freedom to fully express my design. Judging eyes were all around me- ready to gossip about what I did “wrong” what I said, what I wore. I was afraid to say or do the wrong thing and bring shame to my parents or myself. So even into adulthood, I didn’t rock the boat too much, I didn’t ask for too much, I kept quiet for the most part, just tried to blend in and keep the peace as much as possible.
I did not actively - specifically - command the attention I know I could have gotten. In daily life I shrunk myself as to not outshine anyone else.
However my light is very bright, it always has been, so even though I often tried to dim it, people could still see it. Some did not like it, some still do not.
My light and my vibration are not for everyone, there will always be those who will either avoid it or try to destroy it.
And just the same - there have always been, and always will be those who are drawn to it, and wish to be near it in some way.
The same is true for you my loves.
Do not let fear steal your light - perfect love casts out fear - when we walk in our fullness, walk in love, we can do so much more, when we let our light shine we can change the world. The more of us shining, and being authentic, the greater the impact.
The light is coming, indeed it is here - we are here, we are stepping into our love power - new life is emerging, Spring is on her way…
